Agonize us,
With blood cursed by our minds,
Knees not only bent
But raw and chewed with grit and vinegar, and
We too become mute
But not with indifference
But the pain of abandonment.
Endlessly we fight our demons
As they flay us
Mock us, and
Laugh
As they tear the eyes from our heads,
Powder our bones with jagged teeth, and
Spit us out in hopeful
Terrorized bits
That struggle to crawl together-
In Your name-
IN YOUR FUCKING MYRIAD OF NAMES
Trying to find that undeniable self
In, or
Beyond
The bloody and bloodied scraps,
Only to face your Impenetrable silence, and
The drooling, relentless demons who,
Time after time tear and shred us,
Their breath foul by our putrefying flesh.

The cross dissolves
My loves agony rips my ears and heart,
Though my tortured parts and bits are
Mute and I make a vow
From the depths of my heart,
A declaration from the place
Within me that goes beyond this body,
Beyond my soul,
Beyond my understanding,
To never love the way
I did you….
A vow to never turn my back on love
As you did,
No matter what the appearance.
You may
For ever
Abuse me, but
I refuse to pass the abuse on.
In, and from the depth of my tortured mind
And body
Accept the responsibility of my decision
To respect life
ALL LIFE
And to treat Life with Love and Kindness.